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Denise froze and gave a slow shrug. I m dealing with it. You re here, so I m safe.
The lilt in her voice made Jack smile. I m glad. And I know you re in therapy so you re
working on it, but you don t need to be in denial with Zach and I. We re not going to punish you
for your past. Everyone has a history.
She nodded and turned to him. I know. You two are so sweet. Carl was not. I thought I
was so lucky to find a man who was into what I was. I couldn t go to a club to find it. Not with
the crowd I was hanging out with. The tabloids would find out. I was dumb for not doing it
safely and smart.
I thought he took you to a club? Jack wasn t going to let her keep secrets. If there was a
chance for this to last, they needed to share. We got briefed.
Pressing her lips together, she moved closer to him. He did. I was stupid to trust him. He
wanted to show me off and make me do things with other men. That s when I said no. I still can t
believe he got me that far off course.
It s not a den of evil. Jack chuckled. If you re into it, with the right person, it can be
very gratifying and add an element of thrill. But you know you didn t like it. That s important,
knowing what works for you rather than living for what others do.
Denise shook her head. The worst stuff wasn t the club. It was the things he d say. No
one would want me. My dad never did. I was lucky to have Carl.
You don t believe it. Jack held her.
She inhaled deeply and let it go. I did at the time. He added pain to make it feel real. I
don t know what I was thinking.
You were exploring your sexual nature. That s not wrong. He felt her relax against
him. Jack leaned back and kissed her forehead. You just picked the wrong man.
Maybe, I don t belong in it? The submissive thing is so weird when I try to put logic to
it. I can t tell my friends or family. It s not me the rest of the time, she said.
No one else needs to know about your sex life. You get off on this, and that is all you
need to accept. You re just very lightly into it& you don t need to aspire to extreme bondage.
That s a rookie mistake. You don t need to aspire to any level. Dealing with your nature is
enough of a challenge. Which is good because we don t play extreme kink games, either. Zach
gets rough sometimes, but we have it under control. He takes a while to trust.
Why? she asked softly. You two are so confident and so good together.
Jack let the soft scents of her shampoo and body lotion fill him up. She d shared so much
with them, willingly or not. Sharing a bit about their childhood was only fair. We were in foster
care from age seven. Our dad split, mom tried to take care of us, but she was always off with
another guy. Grandma did the work. Once Granny was gone, the system took us.
At least, you had each other. She squeezed him with a tight hug.
Not all the time. Different houses for a few years and one was really bad for Zach. Jack
didn t want to go into details. He ran away and tracked me down. We drifted for a while. It s
not easy when bad things happen.
You guys were kids. That s awful. Denise took a step back. I m grown, and I let it
happen.
Jack grabbed her before she bolted. Abuse happens all the time. All ages. Know that we
understand, not that we had it worse or better. We won t ever order or push you beyond your
limits. When you want to be punished, you know how to act up. We ve seen it.
She smiled. That s the problem. You ve seen me scared of Carl, mad at the world and
mean when I fired you. Getting to the real me isn t easy with all the drama.
Zach stepped in from the living room. We have a thing for challenges. And we see the
real you. During sex and submission, you can t hide who you are.
Her eyes sparkled. I m a rich girl who never had to work a day in her life. Maybe I do
need some discipline. Maybe that s why you two like to be in charge?
What? What s why? Jack asked.
Our childhoods messed us up. I thought my shrink was full of crap, but if you two were
in foster care, it makes sense. You want control over things, people, because you had no control
or say in your lives as kids.
Jack felt his brother s stare, but sharing was part of any relationship. Denise, none of us
are messed up. This is not something we take lightly or play with. There s a huge amount of
satisfaction in controlling and leading a sub to the pleasure they want. You re not so unique, and
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